How many of you could say in this hour, “I feel like I am doing everything right yet not producing the fruit that I desire?” Your A plus B is not equaling C!
I confronted Hudson on his attitude towards his family after he comes home from a friend’s house. I fully understand that his friend’s meet a profound need in this season of life, but that doesn’t mean he gets to be rude or disrespectful to us when he returns. A few hours later he bounced back inside the house from being with his friend full of joy and kindness. He gave me a big hug and told me he loved me. I was thinking he got it and was proud of him for receiving my correction. But two minutes later he asked for a big favor. I felt slimmed. He did what I told him to do and even did it ‘right’ but his motivates were for what he could get out of me, not out of genuine affection.
A dispensary is a a room where medicines are prepared and provided. No one ever lives there but stops by when they need something, generally something to put them out of their physical or emotional misery.
Dependency is the state of relying on or needing someone or something for aid, support or help. God invites us to be dependent upon Him through confidence and trust in who He is. We are called to live in this continued posture with Him.
Are we doing all of the ‘right’ things in the ‘right’ way but coming to Him like a dispensary attempting to get something from Him to alleviate our pain and discomfort or are we coming to Him out of the confidence we need Him.
I am confident in this hour God is removing the dispensary from the Church and Body. He is calling us into a deeper dependency upon His nature, character and heart for us.
The question is do we really want Him or just what He can do for us?